Oliver Lam-Watson hopes to continue using his platform to help others after a ‘really dark few years’ battling personal grief.
Away from the piste, the four-time Paralympic fencing medallist is a passionate proponent of speaking out about mental health and helping men overcome their inner demons.
Suicide is the biggest killer of men under 50 in the UK and Lam-Watson, who tragically lost his mother in the run-up to the Paris Paralympics, has since made it his mission to spread awareness and get men talking.
In 2022, Lam-Watson was faced with the cruel decision of staying with his mum on her deathbed or competing in a World Cup event to secure pivotal Paralympic qualification events, opting for the latter before she died just after he returned to the UK.
Lam-Watson, 33, also recently lost his grandfather earlier this year, training in Hong Kong after visiting his grandmother following a competition in Thailand.
Ahead of next month’s European Championships in Cardiff, he admits he has been struggling on a personal level and wants to use his experience to make a major difference to others.
“Recently, I haven't felt on top of my game,” he said.
“I suffered a lot with the loss of my mother in the run-up to Paris. I don't really think I processed it very well until after Games, so the last two years have been very difficult for me.
“And then with the loss of my grandfather, and an uncle of mine, it's been a really dark few years.
“The biggest killer of men under 50 is suicide. How crazy is that? The biggest killer of men under 50 is themselves.
“There is still this macho culture around it where you don’t speak about it.
“I think it's something we should talk about more and something that I've been trying to speak about and deal with, especially over the last two years.
“I think it's really hard to understand until you go through it. There’s a bit of a taboo and a bit of a preconception and a stereotype when it comes to the word depression.
“If you can help just one person and stop them doing something awful and save one life, would I give away all my medals for that? Of course.
“The death of my mother really put into perspective.
“If anything, the fencing is very much a tool that I use to speak to people, to help people, to show people what is possible.”
Next month’s event will take place at the Sport Wales National Centre and marks the first time the European Championships have been held in Cardiff.
Lam-Watson claimed double European glory in Warsaw four years ago as he combined with Piers Gilliver, Dimitri Coutya and Joshua Waddell to triumph in the team épée and foil events.
Either side of that, he also scooped a pair of team foil silvers at the Tokyo and Paris Paralympics, bolstered by bronzes in the team épée events at those pair of Games.
Lam-Watson now arrives in Wales hoping to banish recent demons and add more silverware to his glittering collection.
He added: “I'd like to have a good time - I'd like to smile and enjoy the process again.
“The last two years have been a case of ‘is my worst better than their best?’
“Because I feel like I've really not been dealing with it very well. I’ve not been super resilient. I've been struggling a lot, and I look forward to, hopefully, at some point, feeling like I’m on the road to feeling better.
“I would really like to feel like myself on the piste again - it's been so long since I've been able to really enjoy it, be in the moment and feel like myself when I'm when I'm competing.
“I’d like to make my family proud and I'd like to make the team proud.
“I'd like to go out there and do some good fencing, play the game and enjoy it.”
The Para Fencing European Championships, supported by funding from UK Sport through The National Lottery, and Welsh Government, will be held in Cardiff on the 6th-11th October 2026, seeing athletes from across Europe compete in the first qualification event for the Los Angeles 2028 Paralympic Games. For more information and tickets visit here
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